Kathy's view

Yesterday I passed the two year marker. Sadly, I realized there is no
marker on this journey. It's simply two years ago that have passed.
Time doesn't matter. I think my friend, Kelley called it "shadow
grieving?" In these past two years I have learned to put my makeup on
and go face the world, but once I'm home, alone in my room, I'm back in
the same place I was two years ago. I've also learned to accept there
isn't a person, a pill, a thing that can make it better. Learning to
embrace the grief (as odd as it sounds) is the best you can do. It is
our grief. It is personal and no one can share it, take it or copy it.
It is as if, it is our friend. In two years, I have learned to open my
heart to the people who are important. Listen a little more carefully
when I can feel past the pain in my heart. Don't waste time with people
who aren't worth it. Don't accept things that are unacceptable. Our
hearts are fragile. We have to protect them. Mostly I've learned, while
everything is important, most things are not significant. Certainly not
to the degree we make up in our minds. Jobs will come and go. Time
will change the course of our lives no matter how hard we try to control
it. We belong to a much bigger picture then what we can begin to grasp.
I have learned to let go.....