Approaching six month

In two days my son will have been dead for six months. It is hard to comprehend, or accept. I asked my friend Kathy who lost her son 2 years ago when was the worst part of her grieving. She explained everyday was hard that somehow you learn live again, but not in the same way. She is helping me to understand that it never really leaves not do you want it to, because it is what is left of your child. I feel my son in my heart more than I ever have, and I know he will never leave me. It's just sad that Kathy and I will never see the men our sons would have become, or share time with them again.